too small and almost insignificant.....?

Dah dua tahun tak menulis rupanya....and dah lama jugak nak mula menulis tapi tak berkesempatan. Blog ni pun for fun only. Salah satu sebab kenapa today suddenly aku start writting maybe because of "BLOGGING to unblock" - Dr Mahathir Mohamad. 

I had been following chedet.com since 2009. Since then I never missed to read any of his thoughts and ideas. But last week, aku beli chedet hard copy. Aku rasa, baca online tak mencukupi. I must keep a hardcopy- koleksi peribadi.

Back to my story, aku blogging is just to express my 2cents of thoughts and ideas. Although, they are not as brilliant and important as Tun M's, for me it does matter. At least for me. Nobody is too small till insigificant (I started to believe that).

Sebelum ini aku rasa diri ini terlalu kecil, sehingga tak beri apa-apa impact pun pada dunia. Contoh if nak menderma, apa lah sangat yang mampu depa buat dengan derma aku yang tak seberapa...... During shopping hari sabtu as instance, no plastic bag day- aku rasa macam useless, coz few people jek yang support the campaign. But now, aku mulai percaya - setiap apa yang kita buat akan memberi kesan samada besar atau kecil.

Paling tidak pun, just untuk kepuasan diri. Kita akan rasa puas, apabila melakukan sesuatu yang bermanfaat dengan ikhlas. Biarlah kesannya hanya sebesar kuman, but at least we do something. If everybody doing something small, at the end, all the small things will contribute to a big impact.

So guys, if you get my point, let's start doing something........

p/s: takda niat pun nak membandingkan diri dengan Tun M, jauh, sangat jauh.....

I can make it through the rain......

When you get caught in the rain with no where to run
When you're distraught and in pain without anyone
When you keep cryin out to be saved but nobody comes
And you feel so far away that you just can't find your way home
You can get there alone

It's ok, won't you say

I can make it through the rain
I can stand up once again on my own and I know that I'm strong enough
to mend
And every time I feel afraid
I hold tighter to my faith and I live one more day and I make it
through the rain

And if you keep falling down, don't you dare give in
You will arise safe and sound, so keep pressing on steadfastly and
you'll find what you need to prevail

What you say

I can make it through the rain
I can stand up once again on my own and I know that I'm strong enough
to mend
And every time I feel afraid
I hold tighter to my faith and I live one more day and I make it
through the rain

And when the wind blows
And shadows grow close
Don't be afraid
There's nothing you can't face
And should they tell you, you'll never pull through

Don't hesitate, stand tall and say

I can make it through the rain
I can stand up once again on my own and I know that I'm strong enough
to mend
And every time I feel afraid I hold tighter to my faith
And I live one more day and I make it through the rain
And I can make it through the rain and stand up once again
And I live one more day and night, I can make it through the rain

Oh yes you can,
You're gonna make it through the rain

Akan ku sorakkan tawa ceria
Agar bibirmu mampu menguntum senyum
Walaupun hatimu hiba

Keroncong buat langit

Langit,
Turunkan lah air mu itu
Agar sejuk bumi ini
Dilimpahi rahmatMu

Mungkin kehangatan bumi ini
Angkara kesilapan manusia kini
Manusia yang tak lekang melakukan
maksiat dan kekejaman
Manusia yang hidupnya berpaksikan arah songsang
Manusia yang berkiblatkan syaitan
Titik

Seharusnya ia berakhir di situ
Belum lagi

Terkadang seolah guruh memberi petunjuk
Berdentum menunjuk arah
Tapi tak diendah
Justeru dilupa terus
Malah dianggap gila

Kemudian kilat memancar memberi amaran
Agar manusia kembali sedar dan insaf
Namun tiada siapa yang tersentap
Terus lena diulit ketaksuban

Langit mulai meredup berganti kelam
Awan-awan tebal berarak meninggalkan pergi
Ku sangka hujan kan membasahi bumi
Rupanya gerimis pun tak sudi

Arghhhh.....

Specially dedicated to Tun M

Sincerely from the heart of a nobody:

I have admired him all this while. But today, after finished watching the History channel - MAHATHIR- I found that I admired him for the correct reasons. It's not only based on my feeling but actual contributions he did to the nation.

He started as a medical student, became medical doctor and a politician and then Prime Minister, he has worked hard for the nation and the malays especially. I have read the controversional copy of his The Malay Dilemma and was surprised of his thought. I might not understand all of his ideas but basically I agree with him.

Kejayaan Malaysia pada hari ini adalah atas usaha dan idea Tun. Bukan mudah menjadi pemimpin yang ideanya melampaui zaman. Setiap cadangan dan cetusan idea beliau mungkin sukar difahami dan diterima oleh masyarakat pada masa itu. Sekiranya kita ditempat beliau, kita pasti merasakan seolah-olah kita berdiri sendirian dan tiada siapa yang memahami kita. Perasaan begini akan membawa kepada kekecewaan dan kegagalan. Mujurlah dia ialah Tun M. Seorang yang tidak mudah tewas hanya kerana ideanya tidak diterima.

Pastinya Tun tersenyum gembira setiap kali melihat menara berkembar Petronas, KLIA, Putrajaya dan Sepang International Circuit. Perasaan yang kita semua tidak dapat bayangkan. Seolah-olah semua keringat dan air mata terbayar. Itu perasaan Tun (atau mungkin). Terkadang terfikir pada diri sendiri - apakah yang telah aku lakukan agar aku berhak merasai perasaan yang sama seperti Tun. Tidak kiralah pada negara, kerjaya, masyarakat ataupun keluarga. Pernahkan diri ini melakukan sesuatu yang luarbiasa (outstanding) sehingga diri ini berhak segembira itu?

Tun juga tidak henti-henti memperjuangkan nasib melayu. Beliau pernah menitiskan airmata ketika mendeklamasikan sajak 'Perjuangan Belum Selesai'. Tapi orang melayu tidak pernah faham atau buat-buat tidak faham dengan sajak beliau. Orang melayu tetap tidak berubah. Perasaan marah dan kecewa dengan bangsa melayu yang lalai dan lupa, beliau luahkan dalam 'Melayu mudah Lupa'. Pun begitu, bangsaku ini tetap sama. Masih mengharapkan diri dilindungi dan diberi keistimewaan. Kekadang kerana terlalu dimanjakan kita lupa untuk bertindak memajukan diri. Kita alpa dan lena di dalam semua subsidi dan keutamaan yang dihidangkan.

Wahai bangsaku, sampai bilakah kita harus begini? Gembira dengan apa yang ada. Tersenyum dengan hadiah dan anugerah. Redha dengan apa yang berlaku. Apabila malang menimpa, menyalahkan orang lain dan bermusuh sesama sendiri. Di saat orang lain berusaha siang dan malam menempa kejayaan, hanya segelintir yang terjaga. Selebihnya - hanya bercakap tanpa berfikir. Bertindak? Jauh sekali.

Tun Mahathir bukan lagi Perdana Menteri kita, tapi perjuangan beliau tidak harus dipersiakan. Ayuh kita berfikir sejenak, ke manakah arah kita selepas ini?

I realise that Tun not even notice my writing, but I write this only to show how honoured and proud I am that I live in his period. It just that I wish I am older enough at that time, to work together with him to build this nation.

mencari sinar di subuh hari

Di kala subuh selalunya kita akan bersiap sedia memulakan kehidupan. Orang kata kehidupan bermulanya dengan waktu subuh. Apabila matahari mula menyinari bumi dan kehangatan mula terasa, hidup mula berubah. Dari kesejukan dan kedamaian subuh berubah kepada kepanasan dan kesibukan di bawah mentari yang bersinar hangat. Namun, sesekali hujan turun membasahi bumi. Menyejukkan hari dan terkadang menghentikan semua kegiatan seharian.

Begitu juga dengan kehidupan kita. Dalam sibuk kita berjuang untuk mengecapi hidup yang lebih baik, pelbagai masalah dan keperitan yang terpaksa ditempuhi. Tidak semua perkara yang berlaku dalam hidup itu indah. Beruntunglah mereka yang mengecapi keindahan hidup. Namun tak bermakna malang bagi mereka yang sentiasa ditimpa ujian dan keperitan.

Sekali kita melakukan kesalahan, kadang-kadang kita akan dihukum seumur hidup. Tapi, mengapa ada orang lain yang melakukan kesalahan tapi dimaafi dan diterima semula? Adakah hukuman itu memilih? Pilih orang yang tidak berharta, tidak berpengaruh, atau mungkin tidak berkeluarga?

Atau adakah salah kita sendiri kerana tidak pandai memperbetulkan kesalahan kita?

Lihat saja hari ini, ada pesalah yang diterima kembali ke pangkuan masyarakat malah dilantik menjadi ketua. Hairan. Ada yang kata, hukuman yang diterima olehnya sudah memadai. Dia telah membuktikan yang dia sudah berubah. Dia sudah bertekad untuk kembali ke pangkal jalan. Tapi apa yang telah dia lakukan? Orang ramai begitu yakin dan percaya dengan perubahannya? Keliru. Mengapa dia lebih mudah diterima dan disanjung berbanding dengan nasib seorang penagih dadah yang tersilap jalan dan telah insaf tapi terus dibuang oleh keluarga dan masyarakat?

Mungkin ini ialah detik mula bagi masyarakat mengamalkan budaya memaafi. Semoga selepas ini lebih ramai lagi yang dimaafi.

Asalkan jangan tersilap memaafi sudahlah. Fikir, selidik dan perhati sebelum memaafi seseorang. Dan sekiranya dia telah dimaafi, lebih baik kita terus memerhati dan membimbing agar dia tidak kembali melakukan kesilapan.

Semuanya bergantung pada kita untuk mencari sinar selepas subuh. Agar di kala malam, kita mampu tersenyum sebelum tidur.

English class in school (Malaysia)

Once, my friend told me his English teacher in school taught English using Bahasa Melayu. The teacher spoke Bahasa Melayu in the whole class. He translated all the verbs, noun etc into Bahasa Melayu so that the students could understand better. He even explained grammar in Bahasa Melayu. He asking question in Bahasa Melayu and students answered him in Bahasa Melayu. Do you really think that the good method to teach English?

My friends came from kampung and everybody in the area not so familiar with English (that was in the 80's. Maybe it different nowadays). In the environment that very difficult to hear people speak in English, and yet 30minutes of English class did not use English as communication language. I wonder, when and where did the students have chances to apply their English? Was the subject only been taught so that students pass their examination? What did the teacher think of English subject? Or was it the teaching method approved by Education Ministry?

If that the teaching method, I am not surprise when I read on newspaper that many of our graduates unable to communicate in English fluently today. They did not use the language in class, and I don't think they used it outside class neither. This is one of the main factors contribute to their lack of confidence to communicate in English.

I do not say the students might not get A for their English paper. They might get A and very good in writing but I doubt if they could speak fluently in English. The basic to master a language, we need to use it as often as possible. New vocabulary demands us to pronounce it in correct pronounciation. Study languages requires us to hear, say and write in the languages. Only by doing these, we are able to major the languages.

People might ask
1. Why we need to convince ourselves only by mastering English Language we are able to grab the chances and oppurtunities in this world?'
2. Can't we be developed country by Bahasa Melayu only?
3. Look at Japan, English not compulsary.

I have no answer for these questions. My experienced shown me that all my books in university were in English, my lecturers were from Iraq, Iran, Kuwait etc- they spoke English, exam papers were written in both languages - but if I read the question in Bahasa Melayu- I might fail the paper (the translation made me headache). After graduated, resume must be written in English, I was interviewed in English. When I got the job, in meeting people spoke in English, report written in English. Emails, memo etc all in English.

I am not pro-English but I think Malaysia not ready to survive in Bahasa Melayu. To all the 'pejuang Bahasa Melayu' and intellects, they need to work hard to prepare Malaysia for this aim and mission. Stop all the 'perhimpunan awam memperjuangkan Bahasa Melayu', or collecting memorundum etc but focus in preparing the language to be used by Malaysian in all sectors and fields. Till that, stop all the words pro-Bahasa Melayu, if you not even doing anything to improve it. Be prepared first, then demand later. Not otherwise.

Just a question:
Is the same situation with my friend's English class happen nowaday?